Earlier tonight, the Tribe gave me this read. They showed me that I was at the crossroads and I was going to have to make a decision: Either choose to be a “lightworker” or be the Maiden of Death. There is a part of me that still wants to be a hero. That wants to be liked. That disgusting Christian part of me, that wants to fit in with all the others who turn a blind eye to atrocities because of “grace”. Mouth full of venom for people who don’t believe like them, mouth full of praise for their molester priests and pedophile protecting Popes. Fuckers. I despise those who defend pedophiles as much as the pedophiles themselves. You can die with them. But, believe it or not, in spite of that, sometimes I wonder if I’m going too dark. In my desire for revenge, am I losing it?
I’m so completely different from who I once was when I first awakened, I don’t even believe it. The entire way that I think, behave, it’s like a whole different person. I’m far more quiet in person, always watching now. Far meaner. I will cut you loose without a moment’s hesitation. I will curse you without a second thought. I hate cowardice. I hate all religion. I hate all political groups. I hate race. I’m not a fucking human. I don’t care about your stupid fucking skin color. You’re not my brother because you’re the same color as me. Most of the biggest pieces of shit I know share my skin tone. (And family tree.). You’re especially not my brother if you’re just a human and not a starseed. Fuck your race. As if you chose it, anyway. I hate the Bible. I hate stupid people. I just hate a lot of shit now. I’m just not the same.
And so, part of me wants to hold on to that old me. Am I really going to start a guild to curse people around the world who deserve to die? Is that really my mission? What a far cry from the evangelist for Christ I once wanted to be. A good little soldier promoting the god of slavery, bigotry, misogyny, homophobia, transphobia, child abuse, pedophila and colonization. (Tell me I’m a liar, I got scriptures for it all. If that God was real, he’d be the biggest prick that ever lived. He killed 42 kids with bears for calling Elisha bald. (2nd Kings 2:23-24) Yo, fuck that guy.). If a regular man killed 42 children by feeding them to bears, he’d be ripped apart before he got to the courthouse. But, you Christians bend the knee to this monster? What’s worse is he doesn’t even exist. You sell your soul to an animal like that to be saved from his “wrath”, simply because you’re cowards. “I don’t want to burn, so I’ll just bend the knee and pretend I didn’t see that.”. Am I wrong? Isn’t that what you ALSO do with your pedophile priests? Isn’t fear why you don’t want to think about where Cain found a wife? And if Adam and Eve were truly the first people, why would Cain need to be marked to protect his life from others? Isn’t fear why you don’t question how contradictory the “Faith vs. Works” argument is? You know the Bible is supposed to be inspired by the Holy Spirit, but also don’t want to question why he can’t seem to get that part straight.
Why would Jesus contradict Moses on being able to divorce your wife, if it’s all the same Holy Spirit inspiring both of them? Moses and Jesus should be on the same page, right? Yet, Jesus said Moses allowed divorce because of the hardness of your hearts. But, that’s an actual scripture in Deuteronomy 24, where Moses permitted divorce. So, what the hell is Jesus talking about, Moses allowed it, but he’s changing it? Now, suddenly, you can only divorce for sexual immorality? I thought god didn’t change, though?
That should’ve been the Holy Spirit speaking through Moses, when he said that you can divorce your wife if she displeases you, no? So, how and where did it change up? And why isn’t the Holy Spirit within Moses on the same page with Jesus when it comes to writing the rule book, if they’re one in the same? Jesus said you go to hell for divorcing for any other reason than sexual immorality, as its adultery. So, for 1,000 years, God was just letting people commit adultery based off of what he wrote through Moses without correcting it, before Jesus? Really?
Nah, you don’t want to think about that, because you’re cowards. But, I hope you do your normal MO and attack the messenger instead. Because I attack back. And you’re going to learn quickly, that no “god” is coming to save you from it. Just like the Christians before you. I see most of you as defenders of pedophile priests. A pedophile religion, that has acceptable pedophilia within its pages. A child, in Rebekah, beging given to a grown man in Isaac. Pedophile. Child sex trafficking. Go pick up an 11 year old and deliver her to a 30 year old to marry and see what happens to you. Sick fucks.
I try my best not to be cowards like you, anymore. Which is why I’m frustrated with myself for my cowardice from earlier. Because this is NOT the first article I wrote on this read. It’s the second. I made my choice. I chose the path of vengeance, darkness and death. I will start the guild. I will curse child molesters, war-starting politicians, warlords, drug cartel leaders, and pimps who physically abuse and force women into sex, with death. You deserve to die for what you’ve done and so the Starseeds will curse you with death. This is who I am. I am the Maiden of Death. And just as the woman in that card is targeting a government torturer, so will I target government dogs who are corrupt and torment the people.
“Love and Light” isn’t stopping the atrocities happening all over the world. 
“Thoughts and Prayers” aren’t stopping warlords from recruiting desperate youth like this to torment innocent people across Africa.
Who is going to bring down pieces of shit like this? Who? Who is going to bring to justice the pedophiles that the “Justice” system allows to go unpunished?
A cop brutalized this woman’s face. They do it all the time. They murder, abuse, rape, steal, and frame people at will. Who is going to hold them to account? Their fellow officers are coward bitches that turn the other way. (And will also be cursed for complicity when the time comes.).
What I said the first time around was a lot more severe and I would say “crazed”. I see these things and I lose my temper. And so, I lost my temper and said something that even I thought went too far. And so, in a moment of cowardice, I deleted it. And so, I went on about the night, and the Tribe told me I needed to come back and write a letter.
What they told me I needed to write about initially was so bizarre, I had to ask them for a read. Apparently, I’m struggling with a form of amnesia. And I’m not properly remembering who some people are around me. Now, I don’t discount this. My childhood memories are mostly repressed and come back in bursts. I remember things from the Astral Realm and members of my Tribe over time. So, it’s not too far-fetched to believe I have people around me that I don’t remember. (And, to clarify, it’s not the people themselves, it’s the energy they represent. Apparently, I should remember them.) It was weird. Personally, I think it’s continued spellwork from my enemies. Hoping that I won’t move forward and they can find an opportunity to kill me if I let them back in my energy. I don’t really know. I don’t care, because all my opps know what it is.
But, when I went to sit down, they gave me the read at the top with John Wick, instead. And it was immediately clear, my mistake. I needed to come back and say what I said before and not be a coward. And the reason why I got a bit nervous, is because I said my targets were going to be world leaders. In truth, they deserve to be cursed the most. And as you can see in King’s Man, the message is about stopping tyrants from starting wars that kill millions. Just like with Death and the Maiden. The Tribe wants government officials and leaders to be cursed. Those who start wars that kill thousands of babies a year. Not just singular child molesters. They want the ones who pay the warlords to destabilize regions, not just the Warlords.
Talking like this, is a last area of cowardice I have to deal with. My Tribe has no fear. I mean, they kill world leaders all the time. It’s their simulation and no one is immortal in it. So, of course if they want to take a politician out of it, they don’t give a fuck. What’s a human to them? Or, a title? I just have to steel myself for the mission.
And so, that’s what this is. I’ve made my decision. I will use my ability to curse and manifest destruction and death to bring justice to those who deserve it. I don’t give a fuck who likes it, or not. Try and stop me. We’ll bury you with the Pedophiles you try to protect.
Recruitment for the Assassins Guild begins this year. (It probably won’t be called the “Assassins Guild”. Killing won’t be the only method of punishment. But, the Tribe will give me something.) “Judgment”. (Okay, going to call it Judgment. That was fast.).
But, I just want to point out, that I had something else really important to do. I was really looking forward to getting started tonight, as well. However, because I was a pussy and backed down from what I said, the Tribe made me write it twice. And it’s not even as good or passionate as the first time. The rage is gone. And so, this is a lesson to me: Being a bitch wastes time and energy. Keep it 100% at all times and trust the Tribe to deal with your enemies who don’t like it.
It’s a good lesson for the rest of you Starseeds out there, too.
Update: The Tribe will not leave me alone about this amnesia shit! I’m about to shut down and go to sleep. One more read. The last card makes it obvious. They will not leave me alone about this. I don’t have any relationship like that with any opp or anyone around me, right now. I dumped the only people I liked in this town for various bullshit. What memory loss is this, damnit? What makes it worse is that everybody blatantly saw I said I was going to New York and then changed my mind, which is similar to the Lifeguard. I don’t know what’s going on, but I know that’s a government agent in Swamp Thing’s hands. Seems to be an opp in the middle of things.
At this point, I’m just looking at this as something the Tribe is working out for you Starseeds. Some major synchronicity. I don’t know what the hell this is, but Little Fish describes what I’m being told. For example, here are more cards that they’ve been giving me in reads like this:
All these cards, amongst others telling me I’m forgetting shit, including someone very important to me. I think probably the most jarring for me is the Matrix Resurrections, where Neo completely forgot he was Neo and had to be woken up and reminded again. This is exactly what’s happening to me now. I’m remembering who I once was.
I don’t know why I need to even share this. Perhaps this will spark something within another Starseed once I start heavily advertising these posts? Perhaps I will be reunited with whoever this is I’m forgetting? I see dozens of people I haven’t met yet, possibly he or she is one of them? I don’t know. But, for some reason, the Tribe is doing this and telling me to put it out there. I know my Tribe, it’s for a reason. Even if I don’t see it, yet.
Peace.